Anxiety: SENIOR SHOW. Holy crap. Yesterday Crawford asked us to make out a DAILY schedule of what we're going to do for the show for the rest of the semester. Talk about over-whelming. Not to mention, I have to actually DECIDE what it is I'm going to be doing... Because my plan is to start my first piece Tuesday. Oh my goodness. Scheduling out the rest of my semester is scary! When I finished it I thought, "oh, this is accomplishable..." my next thought was, "if senior show was my only class!" Ladies and gentlemen, I am going to die this semester. Crawford said that a total of 5 people have failed senior show. She did not specify if it was because of death or not. My art major was supposed to be for kicks and giggles! When did everything get serious! It feels like a relationship... I love it so much, but it is so time consuming!
Apathy: Business courses. I love finance. I enjoy it, but in the middle of the day, I do not want to do the homework. And, occasionally, I don't do the homework until an hour before class and guess what - it's still easy. My ideal apathetic course: wait 'til the last minute to get an A. Capstone, overrated. The class would be good and interesting, if it were my only class. But I am so distracted that Capstone just kind of slips in the cracks. I want to care more, but my anxiety over senior show just overshadows everything else.
Antsy-ness: I am so antsy for the next thing! I hardly can focus on the now because I am just so excited and looking forward to the future! I have so much to do now, but I simply want to sit down plan the upcoming months after graduation! So, when you add in the anxiety of senior show, I feel even more anxious about the future because I have to do so much before I get there and when you add in the apathy, I feel even more apathetic towards the business classes.
Apprehension: Senior show is scary. I feel very apprehensive about my artistic ability. But what is even more scary is real life is approaching. I'd be crazy if I didn't feel apprehensive about my goal to move to London. It's a whole 'nuther country! Out of all my 'A' emotions, I am really trying to suppress this one, because if it gets out of hand, it'll hold me back.
Well, I guess I had better get back to my mountain of homework and art stuff...
Currently Listening to: A Little More Country Than That by Easton Corbin
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You want to move to London!? That is awesome! I myself would like to live there for about 6 months; we'll have to meet up and show those Brits how crazy Americans really are ;) Do you think they have Poor Man's Pinata in London? Good luck with your show...I know you will rock it :)
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