My First Blog Since Xanga...

Hello blogging community,
I have noticed that I have been feeling like I want to write and share online more and more, and changing my status on Facebook compulsively just doesn't satisfy me. Hence, the blog. However, it will be interesting to see how long this little nagging at me lasts, so this blog may or may not be a flop.

As an explanation for the blog title, not only is it my favorite book (I don't care if Dickens got paid by the word, I love it), it is also pretty representative of me. Ever since I came out to college, my expectations of life have become grand. Likewise, my expectations of myself have increased. I am ambitious, I am adventurous, I am capable, I am intelligent - there is no reason for failure. However, unlike Pip, I do not have a benefactor who is there to realize my dreams for me. I am well aware that if I want it, I have to work to get it myself.

Enough about my expectations for now. Let's give a bit of a background upon which my future posts can hope to make sense:
As a senior in college, I will be planning the next 5 years of my life. Clearly this is going to be a volatile time in my life, if for nothing else than for the sheer fact that I'm young and there are a million things on my "to-do-before-my-last-kid's-graduation" list. Just for the record, there are no kids. No husband either for that matter. I do, however, have a little dog, Kio, who is the love of my life. I currently work as an apartment manager. I'm sure I'll rant about it in the future. In May I will be graduating with a double major in Business Management and Art. Art is my passion, finance is my talent. I love art, but I also need to feed myself. Most art majors at this school have another major, we're sort of rational.

Currently, I feel mostly pleased with my decisions up to this point. The apartment manager position could have used some more thought, but I have Kio, so everything is worth it, plus, the experience on my resume will pay off too (it's really not that bad; I'm exaggerating). My choice in school was iffy in the beginning, but I think that that's worked out too, there are way more opportunities that I have had here than I think I would have gotten anywhere else (especially BYU, yup, I have to bash). I've been through some rocky times recently, which has caused a lot of need for personal reflection, and thus, this blogger release of thoughts/emotions/ambitions/desires. The highlight of my life, I think, is my art major. I cannot describe currently how much I enjoy it and how soothing yet exhilarating it is. I wish I could just drop my business classes and focus on art. But if I do that, I can't graduate with a double first, and then all of my not enjoyable business classes would have been in vain.

Well, that is all for now. I unfortunately have a mountain of business homework that needs to be pruned.

Currently listening to: World Behind My Wall by Tokio Hotel